FUTILITY

FUTILITY
H. Lynnette Barr

 

I quit

in favor of that theory about

**************starting*******fresh,

*********************y’know?

So I scrubbed

********the tobacco

***************from my lungs

********and the pesticides

***************from my intestines

********and the alcohol

***************from my brain,

 

***************the artificial flavoring

***********************from my personality

***************the guilt tracks

***********************from my memory

***************the bodily fluids

***********************from my fantasies

 

********Sadness—gone

********Pleasure—****gone

**********Gone crybaby********crazy lady

*****************shit and cock and

****************damn***elation

************************fascination

************************cosmos and hiding and

************************clutter and

 

finally, *****************for my grand finale,

*********I threw away every

***********************last

*************************one

***************************of

*****************************my

********************************fucks.

I did that, ****************and the rest came

*************************flooding back.

 

**********I quit.

 

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